stand and fall

in the name of Allah i begin.

by hamkatta on Deviantart

through joy or sad.

feeling good or bad.

when you cry or mad.

remember,

i'm always here.

holding your hand,

the help i send

is not just a hand.

i will fight the hurricane,

as long as i can.

p/s: zueaen, together we stand, together we fall.

pendek akal

dengan nama Allah aku mulai

by Babyzaiyne on Deviantart

fikiran bersawang masalah bersarang

dek manusia bodoh yang sentiasa rakus mengejar harta

mana suria mana pula purnama?

terangilah hatinya, bukakanlah lapangan untuknya

jangan biarkan kami layu

jangan ditinggalkan kami bisu

usah ditinggalkan kami beku

tunaikanlah dulu tanggungjawabmu.

hey si pendek, bodoh, tolol, bangang!

apa yang kamu mahu lagi?

tidak cukupkah anugerah Tuhan untukmu?

rumah besar, chalet merata, harta melimpah.

apa lagi?

oh kamu mahu mengumpul dosa?

apa kamu mahu ke neraka?

tidak takut azab yang amat seksa?

mahu lihat Tuhan murka?

hey insaflah, nyawamu masih bersisa

sebelum Izrail datang menghirup nyawa.

harta dunia.

buat matamu lolong, itulah hakikatnya.

avowal

lovin' in my baby eyes by spare bibo on Deviantart

even when,
even the sky cracks
even the earth seism
even the meteors rain
even the stars fall
even the sun stop shines
even the sky is no more filled with twinkles...

i am still,
still here standing behind you, to give my supports.
still here walking behind you, to pick up the pieces.
still here sitting after you, to make you laugh.
still here clasping you, to give you protections.
still here running before you, to clear the path.

and I'm sorry
if i slit your red-blooded-ticker
if i ring the blue.
if i am a hellion in your day, rascal in your night.
if i am not good for you.


until my very last breath, i will keep all of these.
i PROMISE.

"i hope i can shine you with my aurora even i cant shine myself with my own."

desideratum

in the name of Allah i begin.

 this is mine&hers current DSLR with current lens :]

mine&hers DSLR currently use AF-S DX Nikkor18-55mm 1:3.G-5.6G VR

my desire of having new lenses are very high.

but it costs.

high.

* * *

AF-S VR Zoom-Nikkor 70-300mm
f/4.5-5.6G IF-ED

ah, my eyes hurt just when i see this lens!

70-300mm

70-300 by endlessriver on Deviantart

*grrr

VR by konax on Deviantart

argh..

i need to collect and save my bucks more and more starting from now.

hope my savings will increase soon, ahaa! :D

yet, i still do not know when i can buy this stuff.

ah, mind-blowing, awesome!

i want this, i want this, i want this. ;]

aaaahh,  but when?(:

D-day VS Open House

i didnt mean to kill it by homicidal hecate on Deviantart

dengan nama Allah aku mulai.

Alhamdulillah, segala puji hanyalah untukNya, yg memerintah apa yg dilangit dan yg dibumi. Dia itu yakni Allah, Tuhan sekelian alam.

Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar.
my first eid mubarak here just awesome.

* * *

Raining fireworks by couleur on Deviantart

[mlm raya]
semua housemates aku sibuk kemaskan rumah, tp ade jugak yg tido! HAKHAK :P
aku n abg aku beraksi di tempat yg tidak asing lagi bagi kami, iaitu dapur! HAHA
menu 1st day of raye just mknan biase je.
-nasi impit, kuah kacang&satay goreng-

[D-day]
ah! bukak mate je aku da nmpk matahari menyinari bumi anbiya' ni. alamakkk, baru je stgh jam terlepas subuh! why not, mlm tu kalut nk siapkn stuff ntuk raye, aku pn xtahu bile mase aku terlelap. duhh! bangun tido tu trus ke bilik air and then solat. lepas tu kitorang bersiap2 nk pegi solat raye kt Masjid Musa kat Hayyu As-Sabi' anjuran Persekutuan Melayu Repulik Arab Mesir, (PMRAM). Nasib baik tak terlepas bas, ape tak nye, aku jemput akhawat 2 org untuk wakil group diorang untuk solat raye kat Hayyu As-Sabi', yg lain semua pegi solat raye kat Asrama Rakyat Malaysia Abbasiyyah [ARMA]. haha mujur lah sempat kejar bas. ape taknye, berlari-lari anak je. nk lari laju2 kang tertinggal plak akhawat tu. HAHAHA at last we made into the bus with my housemates. kitorang bertolak same2, naik bas awam je.ahaha then selepas solat raye, kitorang bergambar lah dengan senior2. eh eh bukan kitorang tp housemates aku yg bergambar. mane taknye, aku ni photographer. HAHA. aku sempat bergambar dgn abang aku je. HUHUHU pilunya hati ini. xD
oh ya, mase aku duk snapping pictures kat dlm masjid tu [buat muke x malu mcm aku jd photog team editorial skolah dulu.HAHA], ade la 2 pasang mate [sebb die pakai spec.HUHU] yg memerhati kemudian menghampiri aku seraya memulakan bicara sambil bersalaman;

haha sape la yg snap pic neh. tu gmbar aku time kene 'tangkap' ntuk jd photog PMERAM

"Assalamualaikum ustaz. Selamat Hari Raye".

[panggilan ustaz tu biase je even aku ni budak medic.HAHA bangge jap!;P] then die berkata mcm ni :

"ustaz, join team photographer kitorang (PMRAM) bleh tak? kitorang sebenarnya kekurangan photographer n gadget. saye tgk ustaz ade DSLR. ye la, kamera mcm ni org yg minat je yg beli, kalo x mint x de la smpai beli DSLR kan?"

duhh, aku terkedu, terkejut, tersenyap sejejap.HAHA aku pn jawab;

"ustaz, ni bukn kamera saye. kwn saye punye, saye just pinjam dgn dia je...lagipun.."

ustaz tu pun segera potong line aku nk bercerita panjang;

"takpe, nnt kalo kitorang [PMERAM] ade buat prog pape ke, ustaz dtg la join team photography kitorang."

apeda!aku bingung sesaat. takkan nk tolak bodoh camtu je, nnt trase ati plak. aku tak bagi kata putus, tp aku bg phone number kt die.HAHA then aku blah je untuk bergambar.huahua xD

* * *
lepas tu aku pegi beraye kat rumah negeri [Kelate!], punye la ramai org! depan rumah negeri tu ade la 3,4 org minah arab yg ntah pape baling mercun kt kitorang! bongok tol.HAHA lepas tu aku mulakan keja aku! HAHA amik gmbar situ sini, buat muke x malu.HAHAHA tersempak la dengan senior2 aku then diorang mesti cakap mcm yg maksudnye lebih kurang mcm ni;

"aloh la qua, xpuah lagi ko jadi redaksi?"
"weh la lokk, redaksi maahad pah ko mesir nah, banggo aku!"
"oloh hokni sore gak xleh tinggal nah kamera tuh, dr mudo sapa tuo.hahaha"

aiya, apeda senior aku tu! :p kat rumah negeri tu aku tak ikut sgt program die, aku just bawa gadget ksygn aku [even bukn aku yg punye] ni ke sana ke mari.HAHA mcm lesen besar la plak kalo ade DSLR ni. org lain kene hambat masuk dlm dewan, tp aku tak. HAHAHA lepas tu aku dijamukan satay, aku share dgn org yg tidak dikenali je. mls ah nk bagi perut bodo ni kyg cepat2.HAHA

lepas tu aku pegi kat dewan kejap sebb ade persembahan nasyid oleh senior aku called abe juwe n 2 orang jejaka mane ntah HAHA.btw, masyaAllah, mantap wey!! lepas tu aku n juwe [aku pggil juwe je sebb dah terbiasa pggil mcm tu since kat bangku skolah lg even die tue 2,3 tahun dr aku HAHAHA] pegi rumah abg aku, nak rest. letih lah, dhla panas.

juwe [yg paling kiri]

otw pegi rumah abg aku, aku beli air susu 'segar' kat kedai runcit tu. tp apeda punye kureng btol tok arab ni, die jual yg daa expired punye! aku tak prasan la plak! bazir je 6 pound aku! HAHAHA. then aku tertido kat rumah abg aku smbil tggu solat jumaat.

dari masjid Musa ke RKB.

lepas solat jumaat, aku n abg pegi Cyber Cafe Azhar Net ntuk call family. HAHA punye la lame cakap, sampai panas tlinge aku. tp yg paling best, aku usik adik pmpuan aku smpai die nangis. HAHAHA

-the rest is history-


* * *
on the second day 

[OPEN HOUSE]

hari yg best.
that's the word!
thanks to all my housemates, my brother, seniors, and friends who were participating, came to eat, laugh & share.thanks lots!:]
the night before was very tiring. im almost exhausted because of preparing stuff n food for the open house. but Alhamdulillah, still, i made it. not by myself but helps from housemates n my brother.the menus were nasi impit, satay goreng, cocktail pudding, chocolate cakes, nasi bukhari, mulberry syrup and ribena.the wafts of nasi bukhari and satay were soooo great!HAHA

satay goreng.selfmade :]

 

acar timun.hehe

nasi bukhari!selfmade too. hehe

really thanks to ALL. the most unforgetable memories is being with the seniors. i thought they will come bout 10 people. i was shocked when there were almost 20 seniors who came to my house. what an euphoric day!:] shouts and laughs cause rowdiness as they just entered my house, i felt very lucky to have seniors who were always bring euphorias. plethoras of funny jokes they'd made.i laugh lots on this day, really exhilarating.but sorry to seniors also, my house is not too cavernous to be filled with you guys at one time. after they'd enjoyed their meals, Timbalan Yg Dipertua [TYDP] of Kelantan had asked me to arrange a simple "majlis taaruf" at the very moment.

it was a whim. HAHAHA i was the MC. (:

sharing is caring!

really funny to friends n seniors, they hav own bravuras to introduce themselves. we enjoyed it. then Abang Tope gave us some "wise words" tazkirah. He made lots of friends on this day.hehe my open house had been closed after isya'.

the last people who came were 3 people & representative of PMERAM. :] thanks ALL.

come here with joy

bring the light not the lame

together we enjoy

ukhuwwah fillah is the aim.
wslm wbt.

Eid Mubarak 1431H

Eid Mubarak by CoffeeBubble on Deviantart

in the name of Allah, i begin.

firstly n honestly.

i miss my hometown.

the memories of celebrating eid with families, buddies and everyone.

SERIUS, aku rindu nk makan satay yg abah buat, nasi dagang n ketupat palas umi, biskut raye n kek kak.yana!

kalau nk imbas waktu-waktu nak raya tu baik x payah cerita! banyak! :]

To umi, abah n my siblings, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, minta halal segala makan minum, kesalahan yg lampau, maaf sebab banyak susahkan korang semua, hari ini aku mampu berdiri dengan bantuan korang semua. Masih tidak ada daya upaya untuk berdiri dengan kaki sendiri.

Hanya Allah yg Maha Mengetahui, susah payah kita! 

Jazakallahu khairan kathiran & Happy Eid Mubarak taklupe kepade twin, zueaen!xD

 *rindu arwah abg aku, Mohd Azfar Wafri [al-fatihah]

* * *

Happy Eid by Morningdust on Deviantart

& kepade family k.jue&abe dee, k.ina&abe yee, abah mami&mami, che mahani&abah cik, poknik&moknik, pokmudo&mokmudo n ALL [sori kalo xsebut tapi qua tuju kepada semua],kepade anak-anak sepupu yg aku sayangi, sedare mare lain-lain, Selamat Hari Raya!:) Maaf Zahir&Batin. thanks for your supports!

* * *

Happy Eid by xReminiscencex on Deviantart

& kepada teman-teman seperjuangan, Atif, Asri, Farhan otai, Ibrahim Adham, Amir LC, Mat Lajim, Ipe Mansor, Cerah Shrek, Cerah Little Dust, Mat Min, Wemad, Faris Bob, Yahyo, Aiman Kicap, Najmuddin, Shatri, Karmani, Arieffaiz, Lokme, Shahid, Hamadah, Muaz, Fitri, Izzat Razali, Amir Amir & Amir Afif, Aziz Hakimi, Hakim Awang Nila, Fawwaz Aizat, Nik Nabil, Abe Long, Miyo Nuker, Asyraf Afifi, Abbas, Faris PK&isteri (HAHA), Syafiq YB, Ahmad Miizan, Amir Khaidir, n SEMUA lah! banyak! HAHA. to all of u, Selamat Hari Raya, maaf banyak-banyak lah ea? jangan lupakan aku plak!;P gudluck & all the best for you all :]

* * *

& kepade semua cikgu-cikgu yg pernah mengajar aku start dari kecik until now, cikgu Sk Ismail Petra, Sri Kiblah, Maahad Muhammadi Lelaki, Selamat Hari Raya, minta halal segala ilmu n maaf banyak-banyak.HEHE. Kepada Teacher Diyana&Mama Rosmaidah, i really miss you LOTS. & yg mengenali aku secara langsung@tidak langsung. Happy Eid Mubarak!:]

p/s: zueaen, mana duet raya? haks!

Hey!

The Journey by CommanderDex on Deviantart

dengan nama Allah aku mulai.

hey aku!
punyai kaki tapi tidak berdiri sendiri tanpa bantuan teman hati aku pasti mati.

hey kamu!
pimpinlah tanganku, tuntunlah jemariku, bisikkan ketelingaku agar aku mampu tempuhi malamku

hey aku!
ayuh melangkah, bersama janji tempuhi duri hiraukan benci demi mengejar mentari

hey kamu!
mulakan titis bicara, sedarkan aku yang hanyut leka dibuai lena di tilam senja

hey aku!
jangan menagih simpati, kerana yang pasti selepas penat mendaki Tuhan tidak berdiam diri.

thanks all

The finger by Vlad1982 on Deviantart

in the name of Allah, i begin this

Alhamdulillah, all praises are for Allah.
i had so much fun last nite and today.
last nite i was celebrating zueaen's birhday.
on the meadow, under a dark sky filled with some stars.
accompanied by a cool&'sebek' friend. haha
everything went smooth.thanks all, thanks dear. :]

dark sky,
mirthful night.
come star
show us the light.

* * *

and just now i felt like i wanted to skype-ing with family.
just missing them.
international networking [internet] connection in my house was suck, stuck and terrible.
but i need to say 'Selamat Hari Raya' at least before the D-day.
so i borrowed Etisalat Broadband from zueaen.
then i just online. waiting for my sister.
abruptly my brother online too!  Alhamdulillah(;
so we the 'three musketeers' had so much topics to talk, having conversation n colloquies.
my family in Malaysia [currently me n my brother are studying in Cairo, Egypt.both] just shocked after seeing n knowing that my brother n i was close together, like a strong bond.(: HAHAHA
before coming to egypt, i hadn't hav so much chats with my brother.
at home, he's just pretty demure guy. LOL
but since i'm here, we are always contact each other. quite always.
i asked him to rendezvous at my home. celebrating n helping me n my friends in making stuffs for Hari Raya. HAHA
*the rest is history memories*
we just ended my conversation with my brother n my sister after hearing azan asar.
but seriously. i just had fun n joys! really thanks to my Zu Ain Najwa for letting me use the broadband! poor you!;P haha. Happy Birthday, twin. :))

family's love
is not for rent.
always close
until the end.

Hari Lahir

Cake I by ~my Ambition on deviantart

dengan nama Allah aku mulai.

menghitung masa

usia meniti usia

makin hampir kepada Yang Esa.

jari menari

membilang usia sendiri

telah banyak jalan yang dilalui.

jangan bimbang

tiada kegelapan

biarpun lilin tidak dinyalakan.

Tuhan izinkan

dipinjamkan bintang

agar terang laluan di hadapan

jangan terpesong

mulut yang lopong

omongan dunia yang kosong

teruskan berjuang

jangan cuba terlentang

selagi nafas bersama badan.

hati rindu

jangan sayu. 

jiwa kaku

jangan buntu.

ini buatmu

teman jiwaku.

Selamat Hari Lahir;

Atif Banin - 30 Ogos
Umi - 31 Ogos 

Zu Ain Najwa - 7 Sept

Kak Nazlinda - 7 Sept

Abah - 10 Sept

Chocolate Ice cream by Rosalindharrison on Deviantart

"tawa pena aku yang rasa" (:

just when i start to

walk in the blue by ~Jaz-is-rad on Deviantart

in the name of Allah, i will begin. 

just when i start to walk, i fall

just when i start to walk, i crawl

just when i start to walk, i cry

just when i start to walk, i die.

just when i start to run, people dumped

just when i start to run, rumors heard

just when i start to run, people hated

just when i start to run, hearsay abruptly appeared.

just when i start to fall, people laugh

just when i start to fall, people jumped out

not to lend their helping hand, but just to celebrate.

i don't care

even people hate me

i know my Creator is here

to show me

the right way

the right path

and the light.

"pena berdansa, coretan penuh makna"

(: straight from my heart, aqwa diniy

pejam celik; retorika pertama

dengan nama Allah aku mulai

tersedar dari lamuman

hati berdegup kencang

mengapa?

mengapa tiada teman

mengapa sanggup lawan

aku bukan pahlawan

cuma seorang kawan

yang bisa mengatakan

"jangan ikut perasaan"

hey!

mana keluargaku

mana temanku

mana pendidikku

mana halamanku

mana ceriaku

mana tawaku

mana kebahagiaanku

mana aku

yang dulu...

aku jauh

jauh dari semua itu

dan aku pasti

perginya aku rapuh tidak mengerti

kembalinya aku dengan teguh berisi

aku akan kembali

bersama sebuah janji

yang tidak ku mungkiri.

nah, thats all for now! (:

just got an idea. not good but keep on supporting me.HAHA

just miss my family, friends, school, hometown etc.

*curfew*

i'm back

in the name of Allah i begin this :)

ok firstly i hadnt update my blog for almost 4 months.haha

*mmg pemalas!

act i hav another active blog before, but it has been deleted, deactivated, destroyed etc.

why? why i deleted it?

it was not me who deleted it, it was someone else.

"aku terpaku, mulut membisu

mata kelabu, lidah kelu, hati bercelaru"

these wut i felt at that time, really infuriated.

but now. i just only have a blog

*senang sket nk apdet! haha [hope so]

so now, to me.

"welcome back!"

i hope i can hav lots of ideas after this, to dilate upon my words, my ideas, my writings.

also, thanks lots to you, zueaen :)

bila lidah berbicara, pasti ada yang tak kena.

sungguh, lidah manusia susah dijaga pasti ada yang terasa.

melankoli yang bakal melanda jangan kau kunjung tiba.

peace!:)